warning - happiness at work here

I learnt a new anagram recently HML and FML Hate my life and F* my life. It has totally blown me away that these are even being used let alone what they are being used in context with. It obviously originated from teens,- It has that whoa is me I am a teen so I must be dramatic and cool by saying how horrid my life is- feel about it after all. I expect it from teens. My own teen said it the other day (with the result being a discussion with mum) But it has me wondering when did it become cool  and a popularity thing for grown ups to do it?

We all have bad days, most of us have had a grumble or 2 from time to time, its called life, bad stuff happens and some times we hit the explode button, but seriously have we hit hate my life as the bar? Can I also ask why being stuck in traffic or having to work back makes your life sucks soo bad? I mean really is that the most dramatic thing going on in your life, cause honestly if it is, can we swap lives?

The thing that gets me is how many people fighting cancer, other life threatening illnesses or helping a loved one through such a time are the ones rejoicing life. Sometimes when I think of how much life problems are weighing me down I just remember  the times when I was in hospital with my son. As ill as he was, there was always hope with us, that we would ALL be leaving the hospital. While walking around the hallways, I saw  too many mums and dads lost in a world of grief. In the wards I saw dads brushing their daughters hair and talking softly to them, knowing full well this time she would not be coming home again. Yet each of these people all took the time to thank the staff and showing gratitude to the smallest bit of kindness.

I have been on a bit of a crusade lately about feeling sorry for yourself and taking responsibility for your own happiness. Possibly because I was starting to feel it way too often myself lately so I know how easy it is to get caught up in the whole its all too much emotion. Besides sometimes you feel like you shouldn't show how happy you are incase people think your gloating. Once again, why is it socially acceptable to  say life sucks, but not wow My life is just wonderful, or even my life is challenging, but I am happy with  my progress so far?

I have reminded myself that the only person that  can change my attitude is me. Its my responsibility to bring happiness  and fulfilment to my life not someone else's! If I need help its up to me to go and get it either with a dr or just talk things out with friends. If I dont like the direction I am heading,,, its the direction I took, so change it. Things are overwhelming me only because I am allowing them to. Some days I still have a mini melt down about something-Hey, I am a work in progress. Then I stop, breathe and laugh at myself and go really girl- your car wont start, is that really your biggest problem today!!! that's not a problem, its an inconvenience.

A life time of doubting and low self esteem make some days a challenge. Some days I need to remind my self that it is actually ok to be happy with where I am going in my life even if it means others are not happy about it. Their happiness is their responsibility not mine. Victim rarely looks good on anyone, so shed it if you have found yourself wearing. stop and  take responsibility for your own happiness. You will be surprised just how good  that looks on you