This weekend has been a bit of a long one. Emotionally I have been a bit of a mess. Nothing looks sunny. I know I am over tired as I havent slept well this week, but I have really struggled the last few days keeping my head afloat. Today especially I found I woke  not wanting to face the world. It sometimes happens nothing special about it, I  cocoon myself in my room with a couple of old classics -this time it was the chronicles of Buffy.

Tomorrow I will get back to putting on my big girl support panties, but today I am just going to be  a sooky laa laa. I am completely over people not supporting  us, and to be honest over  smiling sweetly when I am  made to feel an inch high in my own home just because I dont want to rock the boat. Why is it when I get upset everyone tells me I take  too much to heart, yet  people are never told they are over opinionated and rude. Why is it when I am pushed too far and I do speak my mind I am the  bitch yet these people that I end up telling them they are out of line play the whole You have changed your not as nice as you used to be or just get told oh it must be one of your  menopausal days.

I am trying to find my balance but some how today I  dont seem to be able to move forward. Most days I  remember to not care what other people think and just stay true to myself. Old habits are hard to break though.