welcome

Well it seems I have  managed to  intrigue or entertain a few folk now. How cool is that. Here I was all these years thinking how odd I was and it turns out  so many others think like I do quite often. I am truly honoured that so many people take the time out of their busy lives to read anything I have to say let alone stop and pass on a comment  and notes of encouragement. So I thought I would take this moment to just  tell my story. Get a cuppa, put your feet up, we may be here a while=o) I'll try not to bore anyone♥

The oldest sister of 2 other sisters I was born and grew up in Western Australia. The majority of my formative years were spent swimming in the Murray River or Gallivanting throughout the tiny holiday community East of Mandurah. It was an awesome place to grow up. Only a hand full of other permanent residents as kids, we had free reign of the place for most of the year. We never had the inclination to get up to mischief or  one of the retired couples or a errant mum would of caught us out and news of our misadventures would surely of made it back to our folks before we even got back home.

I went to the same primary school then on to the same local high school never really having to get over my acute shyness because  I grew up with the same circle of friends for the entire  time, But that was ok, because around my friends I felt  secure enough to be me most of the time.

I met My husband at work. When he started working at our  location all the girls in the building were a buzz at the new Apprentice. He was cute, which meant I knew I didn't have a shot with so many  better looking, less shy girls around with their eye on him Little did I know he didn't even notice the other girls. Still,  Other than  the odd shy hello I barely spoke to him. Only  few months later that changed though at our staff Christmas function... Yes I know how cliché is that! The rest as they say is history♥

Moving on marriage came then we moved on to the regulation mortgage, the cat, the dog. Along come the regulation kids. 2 boys they are the apple of my eye when they aren't driving me to distraction. I have never been what you would call the  gooing and gaaing kind of mum. I read books to them yes, but they were a mixture of books I found interesting as well as  books  they would enjoy. So sometimes they got a romance or heard all about Ayla's struggle to belong. JeanM Auel fans will understand, other times they heard all about Jacks mighty adventure in the land of the giants. I sang to them, often during the day though I put on a music video and  we boogied our  little MINE NOT SO Butts off to the latest hits. then  snuggled on the couch for the fun times of Thomas the Tank engine for the oldest, or for my youngest the adventures of  Pooh and his wonderful friends.

My oldest struggled for most of his life with neurological  problems. Sometimes it was life threatening. for a decade My husband and I didn't know which way was up and more than once we were told to prepare and say good bye to our child. in 9 years of his life he had 12 brain surgeries and  for a lot of that time dealt with massive pressure on the brain issues. As a consequence he  has  minor brain damage which is treated successfully with medication.

As You can imagine this put some pressure on  our marriage, but we are both stubborn people thankfully and neither were prepared to admit defeat. The old saying this too shall pass has never been more relevant than that period of time with our relationship. If anything  the way we dealt with  the strains and stresses of every day life served to keep us together and to remind each other  of what we really wanted. It certainly wasnt what any of our family agree'd with or practised, but it worked for us. I am talking about separate vacations of course. Once  a year Hubby went away with his mates on a fishing expedition. As much liquor was consumed as bait was used, but he always came back after a week or 2 relaxed and happy to be with us. I went down south with the kids a couple of times a year to a magical town called Denmark. There I took the kids bush walking, wandered through the town and found my centre. within a few days I was back to being able to cope with my world.

This of course sent certain family members in a state each time, because as far as they were concerned If we holidayed separately then, we must be either unfaithful to each other or  planning to split. Nothing could of been further  from the truth. We are both fairly independent people. Both of us value our own time highly and both of us seek solitude often. As different as we are in our likes and dislikes, fundamentally we are similar people. We are as different as night and day, yet without each other we cant bring life to earth and help it to flourish. You hear of people saying they have their soul mate when they think of their partner. I think of the earth the sun and the moon. I cant explain it any other way.

Just under 3 years ago after a couple of years of bliss with  the kids  health being better and less trips needed to the children's hospital, we had the rude shock of my diagnosis of Ovarian cancer and cervical cancer.Once again  it was time to batten down the hatches. For the past 2 years I have had my life turned upside down and inside out. Learning to cope with the  daily struggles of  surgical menopause. Dealing with the loss of  my chance of ever  having another child. Learning  how to  put up with the never ending pain some days  from massive scar tissue. Not to mention  finding the  strength to go on when people close to me make thoughtless and hurtful comments that crush me to the core. All of these have take their toll on my  sanity and some days I  find myself teetering on the edge of the abyss. But I am getting there. One day at a time. My naturally perky  and positive nature ensures I am never down for long. Each time I pull my self back out of that rotten hole I sing the happy dance and thumb my nose at life singing nah nah . I win  I win.

I never understood where I got my view of life being a battle and a game to never stop playing. Until I spent a couple of days with my Nan, who is nearing the end of her life. Many would of given up by now and gone on to the other side when they saw the light or the angles as My nan calls them each time. The Dr's are stumped as to how she is still here, but no, each day she is tickled pink that she beat the angles again. I hope I always look at life like that, but now when I think about it, I will always think about my nan and  think,  yep nan we are still beating them angels♥

Well that is about all I  have  to say on  the subject of me... pretty straight forward. Nothing much to see. I am your average  plain Jain gal with the normal issues in life and the normal dreams. If I give  moments of pleasure or entertainment in some ones life each day, then I feel I have accomplished something positive and a piece of me travels through the universe forever. I figure each piece should be a positive one if I am going to put it out there. Its become important to me  that every day I do something positive in someone s life and  make a difference for them, even if it is to just put a smile on their soul for a few minutes. possibly why I love my little job so much. One day of the week my client walks into her house and feels cared for.

Have a beautiful day every one and try to do one small thing for some body else today to make a difference in their life. Call a lonely relative and ask them how they are. Smile  at a stranger. You will be amazed how good you feel yourself.