stop the world I want to get off

Stop the world please, I want to get off!

It's one of those days today. I'm not asking much, just  for everyone to be thoughtful when speaking to me, and perhaps feed me chocolate cake now and then while my arms are in my hugme jacket. 
I dont even know what has set me off today. I woke up feeling icky, nothing out of the ordinary there its a menopausal joy! I am sore from doing way too much physical  stuff yesterday, once again nothing out of the norm there either. All I know is I dont want my music on. I cant be bothered even turning the tv on for sound. That is so not me! I love my music, barely a day goes by I dont have one play list on or another. I dont feel depressed but I do feel this overwhelming need to cry. Not at anything. 
I am excited we are moving and  starting fresh again. I am  loving my kids at this age.  Oscar is being a grouch, but  thats how he got his nickname & he isnt that bad  right caught him smiling yesterday- but that may of been gas! now so thats not it.


The only thing I can think of is today I feel like a failure and a bit of a waste of space. 


Tomorrow will be better, Tomorrow is another day with no mistakes. 
Tomorrow I wont be as sore, Tomorrow I will be more focused 
and tomorrow I will be back  to kicking depressions butt again.


Just for today though I would like the world to stop for a moment so I can take the day off.
Just for today I think I want a holiday from my life and be a kid again full of laughter and  silliness.
Just for today I think I will let  loose at anyone that thinks they can  say what ever they like to me and not get what for back at them.


and just for once I am going to look after me first!