Some days My computer and I have a love hate relationship. I love it and would be completely lost without it, but then it freezes or doesn't do what I tell it to do. Then I want to smash it into a billion pieces and then stomp on it for good measure like a 3 year old having her best tantrum performance yet.
But then I lose that insane need to kill and maim it and we go back to loving each other again and sit in blissful harmony for a few minutes until the next moment when i start arguing and telling it that it is a bloody idiot.. cause we all know its the computers fault not our own in ability to grasp something that our 5year kids figure out within seconds!
Mostly its good, I like change. It gives us an opportunity to grow and learn something new. Our minds are forever expanding with knowledge from every angle and we can either try to keep up and learn to go with the flow, or we can chain up every electronic appliance we own and use them as an anchor for a boat and go live like a hermit, never having to feel completely inadequate about our intelligence levels. As frustrated as I get at my own braininess or lack there of- yeah I know its not really a word- I also am extremely stubborn and competitive with myself. Tell me I cant work it out and I will sit there until I have. If I doubt myself I have to prove to myself that I can. sometimes its a good thing, other times its downright exhausting.
Perhaps I continue to persevere more and just go with the flow with my computer and with all the different site changes because for a long time it was my link with the outside world. When My oldest spent so much time ill I felt trapped in my home. We couldnt go anywhere. Hubby got to go to work every day so saw grown ups. Youngest got to go to school at the very least so had social time with other kids. Even The Lad when in hospital had social time with other kids through the starlight foundation, and when well enough was at school. But I found myself suffocating. I had lost many friendships either they couldn't deal with a kid that had to have so much special attention or I tended to alienate them. Only a very few have stood by me the whole way through and I think no matter where we are in the world we will always have a connection. Still they have their own families and problems to deal with so there were times when I did feel very alone and stagnating.
Through the net I found a gateway to the world and to people. On line I was able to have grown up conversations with other people, mostly other mums, but a few guys made me laugh and I have treasured those friendships over the years. they have helped give me back perspective in a lot of way with the stresses and a males perception which sometimes really helped my marriage.
So when I see people moaning and complaining about the changes on line in the various sites I kind of think, really! Is that the worst thing in your life? We have a gateway to a world, meeting people we never would ever had the opportunity to meet otherwise. We are being exposed to other cultures and learning about different things every time we go on line. We also have a choice, either go with the flow and learn something new or log off and pull the power plug and go get all the jobs done we are all putting off by being on line in the first place .... You know I am right there dont ya =o)
So while I finish off acquainting myself with this new format I will pat my computer and in my best Shrek voice say "That'll Do puter, That'll Do".
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